The Vomitorium of Ophelia Cobain

Today I decidedWhile I dusted empty spaces,I would very much ratherSit cross-legged in front of...

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:10:00 -0400

Today I decided
While I dusted empty spaces,
I would very much rather
Sit cross-legged in front of you,
Gently kissing your hands,
Watching your shifting eyes
And your guarded smile,
As you ask what you did
To deserve a girl like me.

Please remind me.

Malibu - Hole with special guest Lauren

Tue, 14 May 2013 16:58:52 -0400

Malibu - Hole

with special guest Lauren

The Pagan

Sat, 11 May 2013 02:14:00 -0400

I want to bloom, self-destruct,
Reappear in your room.
Right the wrongs of your hands
And write words of your moon.

Your name in my veins
And my words are in vain
A pound of my flesh just
To feel you again

I will sink through your sheets
And I’d sink into sleep
And you and the gods will
Debate my release

Miles and miles of our worlds
Writ in bile
It convulses my body
And shoots from inside

In the sputtering breaths
As I leave for your eyes:

“Please don’t find me.
Please don’t find me.”

Omission - John Frusciante

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 23:28:32 -0400

Omission - John Frusciante

Experiments in Mountain Climbing

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 23:53:00 -0400

As of today it’s 3 weeks.
3 weeks and 3 days left.
3 weeks left of my emotional Jenga
hoping our friendship defies God,

Planning my words till we fall to the floor
As our friends and families yell “JENGA” around us
Like they’re goddamn comedians and snowflakes
And they leave without cleaning us up

And I know that you hate when I do this
When I’m Taylor Swift meets bad Sylvia Plath
But all that I’ve said is “I want to die”
I never said you were the one who provoked me

And I know you’re not backing me on guitar now,
Because you can’t air out our sexy laundry.
You always liked sexy laundry when I wore it for you,
But now the smell of your cigarettes is out.

So now I’m up here as half of a whole,
But maybe you’re out in the crowd.
Maybe you’re smiling, and I’ll know by your braces.
Maybe you’re in the back getting drunk,

Telling people at the bar you don’t know who I am.
Or maybe you’re sitting in your dorm room,
With this ordeal streaming live and a pillow for me
On the bed where you hog all the goddamn sheets.

My Dress Is Now My Flag

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 00:39:09 -0400

Tear the petals
Hear the proof
Tear the petals
Fear the truth

And my bouquet
Falls to dirt.

Drop the veil
Fade to black
Drop the veil
Take it back

And my bouquet
Falls to dirt.

Don’t seek me out
My footprints lie
True love does
not live here

This wasn’t supposed to happen.

Maybe I Shouldn't Take Everything So Seriously, She Said.

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 13:16:37 -0400

Oh no, I had a heart
Grew too tall and fell apart
Collapse and rust, fell into dust
Why do I always write limericks?

Madonna

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 02:43:00 -0500

Burn me like a witch
Hang me like a painting
Those who cry the loudest
Are not the ones worth saving

When hemophilia
Stains your sheets and
Paints everyone you kiss then
You can cry my tears

I’ve created Hell a
Million times over and
I have seen others I’d
Never dare to dream of

Every word I choke burns
My esophagus and lungs
I can never sink and rest since
My knees weren’t made to pray.

I’ve lived my own Hell a
Million times over and
I have seen others I’d
Never dare to speak of

The only ones that call for Hell
Are the ones who must go back

Go - Pearl Jam

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 14:12:47 -0500

Go - Pearl Jam

A World of No Light

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 01:10:00 -0500

Let this universe collapse
Let it bleed out and suffer
How corrupt and vile a thing
That would tear us apart

The beauty of young love
Is finite and cruel
If there’s such a thing as just
Why can’t you hold my hand?

A rabid dog is shot
Limbs that rot are torn off
So too a diseased world must end
If not a world I can share with you

But still I crawl into the earth
Let flowers grow from my shell
So this world may see some light
So you may see light and smile

Bit

Tue, 12 Feb 2013 00:47:16 -0500

I can’t be sure of the future
But I know I love you now

I could die tomorrow, live forever,
All I know is now

I’d wait for you forever,
Although I need you now.

You’re disappearing from me,
But I love you somehow.

Longing

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 14:28:00 -0500

Coursing in veins is
True fucking love
This will never end though
We will meet ours

I am desperation
I am longing
I am unstoppable
I am longing

Words stumble out like
An addict in pain
Wishing a kiss could
End the need for words

I am withdrawal
I am longing
I am incurable
I am longing

Sigh and mourn as though
All you love left you behind
I’ve tried so hard to reach you
I am still right here

I am a hollow
I am longing
I am always yours
I am longing

Sleep Forever

Fri, 18 Jan 2013 04:31:00 -0500

There is a snake in my stomach.
He drags me down. His rage a torrent.
He pisses bile. He lives forever.

Give me something to sleep.
Give me something to see you again.

There is a bomb in my head.
The cold mechanics. Eternal tension.
I wait for the ticking to stop.

Give me something to sleep.
Give me something to feel you again.

There is nothing in my heart.
Flung away through open doors.
Collapse. Ruin. Dust.

Give me something to sleep.
Give me something to hold you again.

Give me something to sleep forever.
Give me something to hold you again.

Hunted Down - Soundgarden

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 23:56:01 -0500

Hunted Down - Soundgarden

Dark

Sun, 25 Nov 2012 00:32:00 -0500

I’m going away.
My eyes disconnect.
Silly girl’s finale,
Hesitation loses hope.

Please don’t pry,
But nothing is left.
A soft belly,
And a love of others.

Please don’t ask questions.
Everything is gone.
Actions without intentions.
I cannot be saved.

There is nowhere left.
There is no one left.
There is nothing left,
And I shuffle weakly into the dark.

I Get Overexcited Easily

Mon, 05 Nov 2012 10:22:48 -0500

There’s something about it
Your deep red blush
As my hands cradle your neck
As I hold you as tight as I can
Your eyes of love
Your deep red blush
You stare at me
In fear and adoration
Your eyes roll back
And close in ecstasy
Like an angel in a cage
Tranquility in being fucked
I almost wish
I could let go of your neck
Just to hold your hand

Shift

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 03:25:00 -0400

You are your own
And I am someone else
I let go of your hand

I’m in the sky
But I’m out of your sight
I let go of your hand

Awake from you
Grateful but so afraid
I let go of your hand

Shaky steps away
Have led me to my peace
I let go of your hand

I let go of your hand
I let go of you
Even though you were never there

Confidence, Death, Insecurity

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 03:08:00 -0400

Pull the stops
Disintegrate
I’ll become all that I hate

Pull the plug
And rip away
Everything I need to stay

Pull my heart
Claws at my skin
Waiting for Hell to begin

Pull my spine
And leave me down
A neverending fear of now

I choke as I realize you’re not around me.
Dead eyes shift away and leave me cold.
I stand naked, alone, and dying.
Please come back to me.

Hiding

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 15:40:00 -0400

I look for the sun
I look for the moon
I’m a small green star
Hung up in your room

I’ll hang up your bones
Hold you while you sleep
I’m a small green star
I hide in the deep

You pull out your eyes
And I hold your hand
I’m a small green star
I hide when I can

Heaven is hearing every word you say.
Hell is knowing I don’t feel the same way.

Neon Angels - Jenna Silver

Sat, 07 Jul 2012 22:01:20 -0400

Neon Angels - Jenna Silver